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How Bill Wilson Came Firmly to Believe That Alcoholism Could Be Cured by Conversion to God through Christ
How Bill Wilson Came Firmly to Believe That Alcoholism Could Be Cured by Conversion to God through Christ
Dick B.
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© 2012 Anonymous. All rights reserved.
For many years during his childhood, Bill Wilson
repeatedly heard that his paternal grandfather William C. (“Willie”) Wilson had
been cured of alcoholism in a conversion experience atop Mt. Aeolus in Bill’s
home town village of East Dorset, Vermont.
Throughout his youth, Bill was exposed to the account of
his grandfather’s conversion and cure of alcoholism. And his exposure to the
Bible, to Christian religious training, and to spiritual growth was far more
substantial than has previously been known.
For example, Bill and his paternal and maternal families
attended the East Dorset Congregational Church. There they listened to sermons,
and recited the confession and creed. There were tent meetings and revivals,
and Bill witnessed conversions to God through Jesus Christ. Moreover, Bill and
his maternal grandfather, Fayette Griffith, read the Bible individually and
together. Bill also read the Bible with his friend Mark Whalon. Grandfather
Fayette enrolled Bill in the East Dorset Congregational Church Sunday school.
We are still investigating what transpired of a religious nature, if anything,
during Bill’s residence in Rutland, Vermont. However, during his matriculation
at Burr and Burton Academy in Manchester, Vermont, Bill regularly attended the
daily chapel, and heard Scripture reading. He was required to attend the weekly
church service at the Manchester Congregational Church. He took a required,
four-year Bible study course at the Academy. And Bill was president of the
Academy Young Men’s Christian Associatio, while his girlfriend, Bertha Bamford,
was president of the Burr and Burton Young Women’s Christian Assocation. Both both
attended chapel together at the Academy, and also “Y” functions.
Some years later, Bill’s psychiatrist, Dr. William D.
Silkworth, explained to Bill that Bill could be cured by the “Great Physician,”
Jesus Christ. This explanation occurred during Bill’s third hospitalization at
Towns Hospital in New York, where Silkworth told Bill that there was a need in
recovery for a relationship with Jesus Christ, Silkworth using the term “the
Great Physician.” [Dale Mitchel, Silkworth: The Little Doctor Who Loved
Drunks (Center City, MN: Hazelden, 2002), 50].
Then Bill’s old friend, Ebby Thacher, made a visit to
Bill. Ebby related to Bill that the celebrated psychiatrist, Dr. Carl Jung, had
made a statement—“the one which saved Rowland Hazard’s life and set Alcoholics
Anonymous in motion. . . . ‘Occasionally, Rowland, alcoholics have recovered
through spiritual experiences, better known as religious conversions.’” [Bill
W.: My First Forty Years (Center City, MN: Hazelden, 2000), 125]. Ebby also
told Bill that he had been lodged at Calvary Rescue Mission on the East Side in
New York. [Bill W., 131]. Ebby was sober. He said to Bill, “I’ve got
religion.” [Bill W., 133]. He touched upon the subject of prayer and
God. [Bill W., 133-34]. And then, as Bill stated in his own words, “My
friend sat before me, and he made the point-blank declaration that God had done
for him what he could not do for himself. His human will had failed. Doctors
had pronounced him incurable. Society was about to lock him up. Like myself, he
had admitted complete defeat.” [Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th ed.
(New York: Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc., 2001), 11].
I found a manuscript at Stepping Stones which, at lines
935-942, told of Bill’s further statement: “Nevertheless here I was sitting
opposite a man who talked about a personal God, who told me how he had found
him, who described to me how I might do the same thing and who convinced me
utterly that something had come into his life which had accomplished a miracle.
The man was transformed; there was no denying he had been reborn.” [See Dick
B., Turning Point: A History of Early A.A.’s Spiritual Roots and Successes
(San Rafael, CA: Paradise Research Publications, 1997, 99-100.] Bill also
pointed to a further statement by Ebby, and said, “But my friend sat before me,
and he made the point-blank declaration that God had done for him what he could
not do for himself. His human will had failed. Doctors had pronounced him
incurable. Society was about to lock him up. . . . That floored me. It began to
look as though religious people were right after all.” [Alcoholics Anonymous,
4th ed., 11].
Bill’s next move was to go to Calvary Rescue Mission. He
stated, “Remembering the mission where Ebby stayed, I figured I’d go and see
what did they do, anyway down there. I’d find out. . . . There were hymns and
prayers. Tex, the leader, exhorted us. Only Jesus could save, he said. . . .
Then came the call. Penitents started marching toward the rail. . . . Soon I
knelt among the sweating, stinking penitents. Maybe then and there, for the
first time, I was penitent too. Something touched me, I guess it was more than
that. I was hit.” [Bill W.: My First Forty Years, 136-37].
Several witnesses confirmed what Bill did at the altar:
(a) Mrs. Samuel M. Shoemaker, Jr., talked with me on the telephone and told me
she was present when Bill made his decision for Christ at Calvary Mission.
[Dick B., The Conversion of Bill W. (Kihei, HI: Paradise Research
Publications, Inc., 2006), 61]. (b) Bill’s wife, Lois Wilson, confirmed Bill’s
decision for Christ. Speaking of Bill’s trip to the altar at the Mission, Lois
Wilson said: “And he went up, and really, in very great sincerity, did hand
over his life to Christ.” [“Lois Remembers: Searcy, Ebby, Bill & Early
Days.” Recorded in Dallas, Texas, June 29, 1973, Moore, OK: Sooner Cassette,
Side 1]. (c) Rev. Sam Shoemaker’s assistant minister, W. Irving Harris, wrote
this: “It was at a meeting at Calvary Mission that Bill himself was moved to
declare that he had decided to launch out as a follower of Jesus Christ.” [Dick
B., New Light on Alcoholism: God, Sam Shoemaker, and A.A., 2d ed.
(Kihei, HI: Paradise Research Publications, Inc., 1999), 533-35.]. (d) Bill
twice made a further statement of great interest. It is not clear whether Bill
was referring to his decision for Christ at the Calvary Mission altar or to his
subsequent spiritual experience after calling on the “Great Physician” at Towns
Hospital not long thereafter. But Bill Wilson twice wrote, “For sure I’d been
born again.” [See Bill W., My First Forty Years, 147; Dick B., Turning
Point, 94-98; and Dick B., A New Way In (Kihei, HI: Paradise
Research Publications, Inc., 2006), 61-62)]. (e) At Stepping Stones, I (Dick
B.) personally found a letter that Bill had written to his brother-in-law
stating that he [like Ebby] had “found religion.” [Dick B., The Conversion
of Bill W., 62]. We now have in our possession a copy of Bill Wilson’s
signature on a book he gave to a distinguished Christian religious writer. Bill
signed it, “In Christ.”
After his spiritual experience at the Calvary Rescue
Mission altar, Bill wandered drunk for a time and then staggered into Towns
Hospital for his last visit there. Bill said, “I remember saying to myself,
‘I’ll do anything, anything at all. If there be a Great Physician, I’ll call on
him.’ Then, with neither faith nor hope I cried out, ‘If there be a God, let
him show himself.’ The effect was instant, electric. Suddenly my room blazed
with an indescribably white light. . . . I became acutely conscious of a
presence which seemed like a veritable sea of living spirit. I lay on the
shores of a new world. ‘This,’ I thought, ‘must be the great reality. The God
of the preachers.’ . . . I thanked my God who had given me a glimpse of his
absolute Self. . . . Save a brief hour of doubt next to come, these feelings
and convictions, no matter the vicissitude, have never deserted me since.” [Bill
W.: My First Forty Years, 145-46]. As Lois Wilson’s biographer related the
situation, Bill said, “I thanked my God, who had given me a glimpse of his
absolute Self. . . . It was December 11, 1934. Bill had just turned
thirty-nine. He would never again doubt the reality of God.” [William G.
Borchert, The Lois Wilson Story: When Love Is Not Enough (Center City,
MN: Hazelden, 2005), 166].
When Bill consulted Dr. Silkworth after the experience,
Dr. Silkworth said to Bill, “You have had some kind of conversion experience.”
[Bill W.: My First Forty Years, 148]. And the recent biography of Bill
Wilson’s wife, written by William G. Borchert, tells the details of Bill’s
immediate, enthusiastic witnessing as follows:
“The doctor [Dr. Silkworth] always allowed Bill to share
his God-experience with some patients, hoping somehow it might help. And Bill
began learning about the mental and spiritual part of his alcoholic malady from
Dr. Shoemaker, who had now befriended the former Wall Street analyst. Dr.
Shoemaker encouraged Bill to spread the message of change and spiritual recovery
to others like himself.
“Bill took the preacher at his word. With Lois’s full
support, he was soon walking through the gutters of the Bowery, into the nut
ward at Bellevue Hospital, down the slimy corridors of fleabag hotels, and into
the detox unit at Towns with a Bible under his arm. He was promising sobriety
to every drunk he could corner if they, like he, would only turn their lives
over to God.” [Borchert, The Lois Wilson Story, 170]
And what was the simple message, as Bill explained
it to the wife of A.A. number three and set forth in his “Basic Text” (Alcoholics
Anonymous, 4th ed.) at page 191: “‘Henrietta, the Lord has been
so wonderful to me, curing me of this terrible disease, that I just want to
keep talking about it and telling people.’”
Bill’s conviction about his permanent cure was so strong
that he arranged a meeting in December 1937 at the boardroom on the 56th
floor at the Rockefeller Plaza in New York City. The meeting lasted five hours.
Four Rockefeller associates—Albert Scott, Leroy Chipman, W. S. Richardson, and
Frank Amos—were present. So, too, were Dr. Silkworth and Bill’s brother-in-law,
Dr. Strong. In addition, there was an array of what Frank Amos called “the
following ex-alcoholics, William G. Wilson, Henry G. Parkhurst, William J.
Ruddell, Ned Pointer and Bill Taylor, all of New York and vicinity; Mr. J. H.
F. Mayo of near Baltimore, Maryland; Dr. Robert H. Smith and J. Paul Stanley of
Akron, Ohio.” Frank Amos stated that Bill Wilson had briefly told Mr.
Richardson, “the story of how, after many vain attempts to discontinue the use
of alcohol, he had achieved what he believed was a permanent cure, through what
he termed a religious or spiritual process.” Dr. Silkworth stated “without
reservation that while he could not tell just what it was that these men had
which had effected their ‘cure’ yet he was convinced they were cured and that
whatever it was, it had his complete endorsement.” [The foregoing is contained
in the “History of the Alcoholic movement up to the formation of The Alcoholic
Foundation on Aug. 11, 1938.” I personally obtained, with permission, my copy
of this second report by Frank Amos at the Stepping Stones archives in Bedford
Hills, New York.]
For further details, please see Dick B., The
Conversion of Bill W.: (http://dickb.com/conversion.shtml)
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